I just

Wanna get fucked up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its been awhile ...

... but im kinda wondering, i think most ppl have left this site alone apart from spammers, which i think is good, i kinda want noone to know but if anyone stilll visits this site then i think they should know, i have nothing to say, its a defensive mechanism i know but i dont want to say anything right now ... until later im sorry, anyone who knows me knows why

Speaking of dreams......

....... I remember mine from last night

I was on my granparents farm. I was being chased by the police. I was innocent but couldnt prove it. The person who commited the crime was there too. He or she was feeling guilty about what he or she had done. They couldnt tell the cops that they were responsible. I spent most of the time with my granmother and i saw my unlce once or twice.

Im not too sure about what else happened but before i woke up i remember asking my granmother for money to get out of the country because the cops were coming down the road but there was nothing i could do.

Weird huh :o)

RaNdOm PoSt

Energy.....

..............cannot be created or destroyed

Is it the same with emotions??

If we are annoyed, or angry or anything, the resulting emotions are created?. But it does happen where we are *blank* and something or someone, not deserving, becomes the target for all of our emotions.

Patience is a virtue wasted on man,

I need more time, or time to speed up.

What are priorities??

What are yours??

Mine are fucked up and perfect at the same time??

Can people change??

Can people jus type for no reason or is it the subconcious??

Meh, welcome back bob, didnt expect to see u here!!!

Like ......................

......... What the hell???

Firstly il admit im neurotic. Secondly what the fuck??? Thirdly im happy for her.

I have no idea what is going on with my life any more. I am an atheist, and i dont know if i believe in karma but i think that i am some-what of a good person. (If that matters). Compliments are compliments and they are meant to be a nice thing to say to someone. They are too and well meant, but it gets to the stage that one more person wishes to compliment or make me feel better and they come out with the, "Your such a nice guy" routine i will hit something. Anyone, on the off chance it happens, who has said this to me, i am not mad, angry, annoyed or anything else with you, life just sucks and ranting is healthy. apparently.

Ok so the atheist thing, your probaly wondering why that came into play, well its this, GOD or Budda or whatever celestail being or karma or mother nature or whatever is controlling my life must love its job. This thing, (GOD etc) i will call IT, and IT is pissing me off. I can take most of what IT can dish out but a long slow torture will eventually tire out any person. It sucks big hairy donkey balls.

Im sure that there is relevance or a trigger to these emotions and there is. It was a fine saturday afternoon. I had been working in athlone and i was happy to be back. I spent a few hours cleaning the house and myself and headed to the offie, bottled druids and bucky, all was set for a great evening. I had decided that there were alot of people i hadn't seen in awhile so a few txts later and i had deecided to stay in for the night and "relax". Watching movies and drinking doesn't make most people energetic and it didn't make me either. Yet i am a sucker for a chick and surely enough, a few hours later i was in town in a club. Dont get me wrong, i love the vic but i was quite out of it. Good music and good friends makes for a good night but one little thing and the fhit hits the shan.

I dont know, i really dont.
What the hell happened.
It doesnt make sense to me.

I met a friend. I chatter to her. I ignored my other friends to catch up with this friend. Does that make me a bad person?? It doesn't really matter. So i was chatting to her and everything was cool and it was turning out to be a great night. When stuff like this happens to most people the ending is .. ... . . they get the girl, they have the fun and it all ends happily ever after.

.... Now what happened to me.
I was dancing with her and it was all cool. She said that she had to get her cousin but she would be back. She did come back and she did bring her cousin. I knew her cousin. I dont know if she knew that. Within a minute this girls cousin had kissed me and hugged me so much that when she stopped the origional girl was nowhere to be seen. The cousin is a cool person but i have never been friends with this girl and she acts as if we were best friends. I knew her 2 years or more ago when i was going out with one of her friends.

Ok so i didnt finish this comment when i started it and more has happened.

I got her number from a friend and caller her for someone else one night, that was cool and all, she said she was sick and coulndt come out but to ring her on saturday. So i did.

On saturday i worked a half-day and went home, got ready and headed for a friends b-day party thing was started as a meal. The meal was the climax of the night. Meal was unreal. Afterwards i rang her and went to her house. we chatted for ages and headed out. It was a pretty cool few hours. After a while she told me that we were great friends and that we connected really well and how she fancied some other guy with whom she wanted me to meet. I remember seeing him for a minute but have no idea what happened after. Thank god for alcolol and mind bending.

No idea what my point is anymore but life sucks for now

A smart choice......

................. or a dumb impulse


It remains to be seen , iv made a decision, for those who know and those who dont, i have 2 blogs. One is this merry little summary of events and the other a place to bithch and moan and be my other me. With the invasion by bebo gripping the nation i reckon that very few will actually read this but i remember the good old days b4 bebo. Damn you bebo.

So i suppose and update would be welcome, i work, work, work and occasionally sleep and drink and smoke. Im a bad person. I think i was a good person at some stage but then i went crazy. Its goin to be tough, i know. It shouldn't be, i know. It will all the same, nothing to do with great friends or whateve else gets me through the days. At some points i think im being far too melo-dramatic and then i think, i barely know what that means. I know that i dont have a hard life and i know other ppl, if looking at this think boo-fucking-hoo he gots a wittle problem.

I am just rambling and am slightly mad but what the hell.

I hate this doubt shit.

I need to go.

"My best friend and worst enemy",
U know me too well for my own good,
What am i?

Beep

Beep

Bee

Bee

Be

Be

B

B

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now and forever,
nema

Doesn't Everybody Love........

................ When things come together on a SUNNY day outside

Shit man, woman , bloggers and bloggerettes, lets all just say hi, hello and GOOD MORNING to you, me and the world around us. Its just a great time to be alive. That point upon which one gives up hope is the short end but before a better beginning, thats right dead as in rebirth.

Never ever give up hope on people.
Ever.
They are the best ever,
Cept scumbags who arent,
But thats not that much so..........
Huzzah for the shopkeep,
And all that!!!

Lets enjoy this wave because its worth it, every bit!!!!!!!!!!!

Now you gone and ........

................. done it reins

Some have come and gone
Others are here to stay
Some have never liked it
For you and me, we know. We know. We know

Some things never change, others do. Iv decided to write here as im not sure what i really wanna say and noone is around to hear anyway.

Back to college tomorro and iv done nuthing and i dont care to an extent. What will happen, will happen and there isnt much i can do about it. So college is life and life is college and stuff and stuff.

Why do i listen when i know and when i know why dont i listen??

I know but do you?
You know but do i?
Do i make sense or do i belong in eyre square with the "bunch"?
"Rabble, Rabble"
"Ur sister!!!"
"Fuck me and suck you too"
"Looking to meet guys\girls in your area??,
Tired of being alone??
Just call 00353698GOFUCKME"
"Il regret thus and thus iv regretted"
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