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......... What the hell???
Firstly il admit im neurotic. Secondly what the fuck??? Thirdly im happy for her.
I have no idea what is going on with my life any more. I am an atheist, and i dont know if i believe in karma but i think that i am some-what of a good person. (If that matters). Compliments are compliments and they are meant to be a nice thing to say to someone. They are too and well meant, but it gets to the stage that one more person wishes to compliment or make me feel better and they come out with the, "Your such a nice guy" routine i will hit something. Anyone, on the off chance it happens, who has said this to me, i am not mad, angry, annoyed or anything else with you, life just sucks and ranting is healthy. apparently.
Ok so the atheist thing, your probaly wondering why that came into play, well its this, GOD or Budda or whatever celestail being or karma or mother nature or whatever is controlling my life must love its job. This thing, (GOD etc) i will call IT, and IT is pissing me off. I can take most of what IT can dish out but a long slow torture will eventually tire out any person. It sucks big hairy donkey balls.
Im sure that there is relevance or a trigger to these emotions and there is. It was a fine saturday afternoon. I had been working in athlone and i was happy to be back. I spent a few hours cleaning the house and myself and headed to the offie, bottled druids and bucky, all was set for a great evening. I had decided that there were alot of people i hadn't seen in awhile so a few txts later and i had deecided to stay in for the night and "relax". Watching movies and drinking doesn't make most people energetic and it didn't make me either. Yet i am a sucker for a chick and surely enough, a few hours later i was in town in a club. Dont get me wrong, i love the vic but i was quite out of it. Good music and good friends makes for a good night but one little thing and the fhit hits the shan.
I dont know, i really dont.
What the hell happened.
It doesnt make sense to me.
I met a friend. I chatter to her. I ignored my other friends to catch up with this friend. Does that make me a bad person?? It doesn't really matter. So i was chatting to her and everything was cool and it was turning out to be a great night. When stuff like this happens to most people the ending is .. ... . . they get the girl, they have the fun and it all ends happily ever after.
.... Now what happened to me.
I was dancing with her and it was all cool. She said that she had to get her cousin but she would be back. She did come back and she did bring her cousin. I knew her cousin. I dont know if she knew that. Within a minute this girls cousin had kissed me and hugged me so much that when she stopped the origional girl was nowhere to be seen. The cousin is a cool person but i have never been friends with this girl and she acts as if we were best friends. I knew her 2 years or more ago when i was going out with one of her friends.
Ok so i didnt finish this comment when i started it and more has happened.
I got her number from a friend and caller her for someone else one night, that was cool and all, she said she was sick and coulndt come out but to ring her on saturday. So i did.
On saturday i worked a half-day and went home, got ready and headed for a friends b-day party thing was started as a meal. The meal was the climax of the night. Meal was unreal. Afterwards i rang her and went to her house. we chatted for ages and headed out. It was a pretty cool few hours. After a while she told me that we were great friends and that we connected really well and how she fancied some other guy with whom she wanted me to meet. I remember seeing him for a minute but have no idea what happened after. Thank god for alcolol and mind bending.
No idea what my point is anymore but life sucks for now
Firstly il admit im neurotic. Secondly what the fuck??? Thirdly im happy for her.
I have no idea what is going on with my life any more. I am an atheist, and i dont know if i believe in karma but i think that i am some-what of a good person. (If that matters). Compliments are compliments and they are meant to be a nice thing to say to someone. They are too and well meant, but it gets to the stage that one more person wishes to compliment or make me feel better and they come out with the, "Your such a nice guy" routine i will hit something. Anyone, on the off chance it happens, who has said this to me, i am not mad, angry, annoyed or anything else with you, life just sucks and ranting is healthy. apparently.
Ok so the atheist thing, your probaly wondering why that came into play, well its this, GOD or Budda or whatever celestail being or karma or mother nature or whatever is controlling my life must love its job. This thing, (GOD etc) i will call IT, and IT is pissing me off. I can take most of what IT can dish out but a long slow torture will eventually tire out any person. It sucks big hairy donkey balls.
Im sure that there is relevance or a trigger to these emotions and there is. It was a fine saturday afternoon. I had been working in athlone and i was happy to be back. I spent a few hours cleaning the house and myself and headed to the offie, bottled druids and bucky, all was set for a great evening. I had decided that there were alot of people i hadn't seen in awhile so a few txts later and i had deecided to stay in for the night and "relax". Watching movies and drinking doesn't make most people energetic and it didn't make me either. Yet i am a sucker for a chick and surely enough, a few hours later i was in town in a club. Dont get me wrong, i love the vic but i was quite out of it. Good music and good friends makes for a good night but one little thing and the fhit hits the shan.
I dont know, i really dont.
What the hell happened.
It doesnt make sense to me.
I met a friend. I chatter to her. I ignored my other friends to catch up with this friend. Does that make me a bad person?? It doesn't really matter. So i was chatting to her and everything was cool and it was turning out to be a great night. When stuff like this happens to most people the ending is .. ... . . they get the girl, they have the fun and it all ends happily ever after.
.... Now what happened to me.
I was dancing with her and it was all cool. She said that she had to get her cousin but she would be back. She did come back and she did bring her cousin. I knew her cousin. I dont know if she knew that. Within a minute this girls cousin had kissed me and hugged me so much that when she stopped the origional girl was nowhere to be seen. The cousin is a cool person but i have never been friends with this girl and she acts as if we were best friends. I knew her 2 years or more ago when i was going out with one of her friends.
Ok so i didnt finish this comment when i started it and more has happened.
I got her number from a friend and caller her for someone else one night, that was cool and all, she said she was sick and coulndt come out but to ring her on saturday. So i did.
On saturday i worked a half-day and went home, got ready and headed for a friends b-day party thing was started as a meal. The meal was the climax of the night. Meal was unreal. Afterwards i rang her and went to her house. we chatted for ages and headed out. It was a pretty cool few hours. After a while she told me that we were great friends and that we connected really well and how she fancied some other guy with whom she wanted me to meet. I remember seeing him for a minute but have no idea what happened after. Thank god for alcolol and mind bending.
No idea what my point is anymore but life sucks for now
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